So, I haven't been on here in FOREVER.
I'm trying to update everything, read peoples stories, and check out everyones deviations.
It's soooo much.
I finally got through all of my messages.
And I have a lotttt to tell you guys!

So we'll start off with the boyfriend.
I have a new one(haha) Hid names Justin.
We've been dating for 4 months, it'll be 5 on Halloween<3.
Cause that's like the best time to have a 5 month haha.
He makes me so happy.
he lives 30 minutes from me so its hard seeing him a lot, but we make it work.
I honestly never felt this way before.
He gives a whole new definition of love.
He calls me every night and we talk, and in the morning to wish me luck at school (awee)
He helps me with all of my problems, and know exactly how to make me happy.
He makes me laugh like no other.
And he treats me like the most special girl on the Earth...even though I'm not at all.
He's my bestfriend AND my boyfriend.
And he's adorableee<3

Here's a linkkk
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I had an amazing Summer!
I went to warped tour with Abbie and Kim<3
It was so much fun.
This one guy had a free hug sign so i hugged him but I'm soooo tiny he like picked me up and started rubbing my back and abbie was on the ground dying LOLOL.
hey, it was a good hug
i went to Virginia with my bestfriend Amber, what a great experience.
I went to like 590123501560 shows and saw
Mychildren Mybride, Suffokate, Born of osiris, bring me the horizon, all shall perish and like 249237698 other bands.
It was BOSSSSS.

I also lost a fried.
But I dont give a fuck.
She was an attention whore who lied about being raped.
Fuck her.
I grew a pair and told her the fuck off heres the convo, itll be a little long sorry.

Alyssa:
lol.
wow thanks for not being a friend and talk shitt on me with rachel..
and i never cheated on matt with marcus. i was tired of matt lieing to me all the time.
if you really do want to talk about me be hide my back then go ahead.
thanks for stabing me in the back like that.
i thought you were my bestfriend.
but i guess not.
so just dont talk to me at school tommr.
bye.

Me:
are you fucking kidding me?
Matt said that you cheated on him with marcus not me. Ask Rachel ask matt ask justin ask mother fucking marcus. I didn't fucking say anything to her about you. Like you should ask me about that before you just flip out on me. I didn't say that. I wouldn't have said that.

Alyssa:
dude,
i never cheated on matt.
i havent even seen marcus.
and i looked at fucking rachel's comments.
and ashely's.
and i am moveing to delaware anyway.
so you wont have to talk to me.
and because "i am such a bad person for breaking up with matt".
okay i am nothing running back to anyone anymoree.
i am sorry but i lost my trust.
bye.

Me:
no I don't think you're a bad person for breaking up with matt. And I know you didn't fucking cheat on matt. Matt said you cheated on matt. So stop getting big with me. I didn't say shit. Yeah I told Rachel that you were dating marcus again because she's my mother fucking friend and she still loves him. So I just told her that you guys were dating again. And I was talking to Ashley about how you took matt out of your profile and said you were single before he was even out of rocksford.

Alyssa:
first off i am not getting big with anyone.
and really if you want to be like this. DONT TALK TO ME, DONT LOOK AT ME.
cuz i am tired of people stabing me in the the fucking back when they are my friend...
i am just tired of this shit, and wow you would tell rachel and i was your friend, well supposedly your friend that you knew for ever?
well guess not.
that how it alwas goes.
and why i broke up with matt was because he lied to me 24/7.
so whatever.
i am losing you and i guess i am fine with that.

Me:dude I am your fucking friend I'm rachels friend too. Even if you guys aren't friends doesn't mean I cant fuckin be both of your friends. And whoever stabbed you in the fuckin back? No one. I never stabbed you in the back. Name one fuckin way I stabbed you in the back.

Alyssa:dude samm i fucking readed the comments and soo did kate.
she even thinks it to.
okay so yeahh there is proof.
you were saying how pissed you were at me and shit, why couldnt you just say it to me without running off to someone and talking about me.
so yeah.
BYE!

Me:
Yo I can be pissed if I want. Chances are you have been pissed with me. It did piss me off how right after you broke up with matt you were all you're the only one that gives me "that feeling" it made me mad. You said the same thing about matt.
I have every right to be pissed. If I wanna be pissed I can be fucking pissed.

Alyssa:
did i say you couldnt be? LOL.?
and really your picking matt over me?
wow thats fucked up.
like i said dont even try talking to me tommr.

Me:
when did I fucking say I was picking his side?
I said that I was piss that right after you broke up with MATT you said that MARCUS is the only one that you love and shit.

Alyssa:
and?
what if it is true?
when you have a true friend they dont care what goes on with boys and that shit.

and not a true friend is when they talk crap on you, and they pick the boys side of the story and tell everyone, and is like "i am pissed at her profile, omfg" .
sound familiar?

Me:
yeah, it does sound familliar. Cause I said it and I meant it. You don't wanna be my friend? Fine. Because I honestly don't need you to move on with life. I have always been there for you. For everything. Remember when your dad was giving you shit and you called me at 11 and I came to your house to help you? Because I'm a good friend. And a good friend points out when you're doing something wrong to help you. No ones out to get you, no one wants to start shit. I honestly didn't stab you in the back. Saying that I'm pissed at your profile is not stabbing you in the back. I want to be your friend but I'm sick of drama.

Alyssa:
well i guess i dont need you, if you can move on.
and i know. u were a true friend back then, but now u treat me like shit.
and we use to be fine. but justin has taken over your life, thats all you talk about anymore, and your alwas treating me like i am not even there anymore.
and yeah you were talking about me to rachel.
so bye.

Me:
Are you serious?
I don't treat you like crap.
Maybe right now cause i'm pissed.
And so what if I talk about justin all the time.
I'm happy and that's all that maters. He makes me feel great and that's all I need. I was NOT. I said that you were back with marcus and that your profile pissed me off. That's it. Matt was talking to her and said all that shit and lies. It WAS NOT ME.

Alyssa:
yeah i am.
and yes you do.
i know i want you to be happy but i can never talk to you anymore with out you tell justin shit.
and yeah you do treat me like crap, you dont even realize i am there anymore.
so whats the difference anymore?

Me:
Dude, like I don't tell him everything you say to me. And I don't treat you like crap. It may seem like it. But no, I'm not. Like I have my own problems too and I can't just stop everything to help you. Even if I want to. It's hard.

Alyssa:
you do so treat me like crap.
and you wont have to help me anymore.
cuz i am done with people.

Me:
Dude sorry.
And it's hard to you when you lie about so muchh.
And you know it's true.

Alyssa:
what have i lied about?

Me:
Hm, marcus raping you?
Ring a bell?

Alyssa:
well i didnt want to do it with him...
and really it wasnt even thats much of a lie.
and i never even lie about anything else.

Me:
Thats not what he said.
And I asked you if you told your mom about it and you said yes and that you were only aloud to him when someone else is around. I know for a fact if you told your Mom heard you got raped shed be all up on that shit. And when you told Sarah you stopped taking pulls and smoking pot yeah that was a lie.

Alyssa:

well you would get mad.
& i stopped pills. and she didnt care it i smoke. you can ask her.
see and also i am done with you.
and i am done being you friend.
and yes i did say it.
and bye bye.

Me:
Cyaaaaaaaaaaaa whoree


Okay, keep in mind that she's 13 and has had sex with over 4 guys. And like 20 time a guy.
Talk about loosey goosey...
And Im a virgin.
At school I told her that she needs to cut it out cause she's only 13 and she has the fucking balls to say "Well, you're 13 too."
That pissed me offff so I screamed in front of the whole school.
"Well, im not the one having sex like a slut."


I'm done with my rant. I bet no one read it all